I remember being told I was lazy a lot when I was younger. I’ve struggled with motivation and keeping my passion high on any one thing for a long period of time. It’s not that I get bored of what I’m doing; it’s more that I enjoy so many things that it’s hard to be passionate about only a few.
I read something the other day about my astrological sign, cancer, that makes a lot of sense: “Cancer spends about half of their life enjoying the social or more interactive scene and the other half in a reclusive, “I-want-to-be-left-alone” state. For them, it is very pivotal to have a balance between these two spectrums.” ~Thezodiaccity.com I’m not deep into astrology but sometimes it makes sense and helps me explain myself in ways I can’t on my own.
I remember hurting my dad’s feelings a lot as a kid. I would get to to their house where I was the only child and feel a sense of release and relief. There isn’t much calm and quiet in a house with three other kids so I remember feeling like my dad’s house was a sanctuary and a place where my reclusive half could recharge. I would only want to hang out in my room and relax. It had nothing to do with not wanting to hang out with my dad or stepmom…I just needed to recharge. As an adult I reflect on those times and feel deeply sad that I hurt them and gave them the wrong impression. I also wonder if this contributed to the impression of me being such a lazy kid.
Let’s be honest, kids are lazy. They need to be taught how to be a productive individual and do their part. I am sure guilty of that. What I’m unsure of as an adult is how much of my need to recharge is being lazy and how much is healthy?
This is a picture of my dining room table yesterday. I have two computers open and stacks of papers everywhere. I completed 17 things on my to-do list yesterday. Some big and some small. Many of the day’s activities were not on my to-do list. And yet, with a full and productive day I still felt lazy.
It is important for us to give ourselves time to recharge and permission to not be running ourselves mad. It is important for me to realize that there is only so much that can get accomplished in a 24-hour period. There is a point where busywork will lead to inefficiency. I have always struggled with this balance. Somewhere in the back of my mind there is a constant voice telling me I’m lazy if I’m not pushing myself to the max every single day. When I listen to that little sucker I end up frustrating myself for my own unrealistic exceptions.
Don’t be like me….give yourself a break. Give yourself a reasonable amount of stuff to do in a day. Don’t stress about not getting the ironing done or the laundry fully put away. Pace yourself and don’t forget to pencil in some time to enjoy your day. Trust me.
- I’m hungry for my Arbonne breakfast shake. Tummy time!
- Violet is slowly waking up. She is so funny to listen to as she moans and mumbles and grumbled about getting up.
- We are working on some projects around the house. It feels good to finally be turning our attention to putting our own stamp on this place. 🙂